Mentally Uncensored!

Mentally Uncensored!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

...........The girl that thought she had BALLS

SHE WAS A MAJOR BITCH!!!!

Ok remember when i said before i got wit a girl i was never curious:::????

THIS IS HOW IT HAPPENED!!

I MET HER AND IN MY MIND I THOUGHT SHE WOULD B LIKE A BESTFRIEND OR A SISTER OR JUST A GOOD ASSOCIATE!! BUT i found myself bein nervous around her and shy!!! That feeling you are suppose to get when your a feeling a guy!!! But this feeling was wit a GIRL!

I TRIED TO SHAKE THE FEELING OF LIKING HER & THAT FEELING CONFUSED ME! I BEGAN TO BECOME JEALOUS WHEN SHE SPOKE OF OTHER GIRLS & I BEGAN WANTING TO B CLOSER TO HER AND AROUND HER ALL THE TIME!!

AFTER A MONTH I TOLD MY SELF "FUCK IT , U LIKE THIS GIRL!!' SHE ASKED ME TO B WITH HER AND I DIDNT DECLINE!! I WAS SHOCKED AT HOW COMFORTABLE I WAS WITH HER...............!! EAGER TO KISS HER AND HUG HER AND LAY WIT HER!! I WAS COMFORTABLE!! KISSING HER CAME NATURAL EVEN THOUGH IT WAS SOFTER THAN ANY GUY I KISSED. HAVING SEX WIT HER WAS EXCITING AND VERSATILE AND IT WAS MORE THAN WHAT I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!! IT WAS MORE THAN JUS ORAL SEX AND GRINDING LOL!!!! THERE WAS SO MUCH TO DO SEXUALLY! IT STARTED TO BECOME NATURAL TO ME!

I PUT ALL TRUST IN THIS PERSON, A TRUST I NEVER GAVE ANYONE ELSE!!........................THEN SHE CHEATED!! WHAT THE FUCK>>>>>I NEVER BEEN CHEATED ON!!! SHE BECAME A CHEATER AND SHE LIED AND I...........................WELL I BECAME A NAIVE FOOL! I DIDNT WANT TO LISTEN TO ANYONE! I WANTED TO BE THE ONE WHO WOULD CHANGE HER INTO THE ONE EVERYONE WAS TRYNA GET HER TO BE!

SHE BECAME VERY CONTROLLING AND MENTALLY ABUSIVE & JEALOUS!! I WAS BEAUTIFUL AND I WAS TOLD THAT ALOT..................EVEN HER FIRENDS WANTED TO HAVE ME OR ONE LIKE ME! I HAD A GOOD JOB WHERE I WAS MAKING MORE MONEY IN A DAY THEN SHE GOT IN A TWO WEEK PAY CHECK!! SHE BECAME ENVIOUS OF ME AND THE THING I HAD!! SHE LIED SO MUCH THAT AFTER A WHILE THEY JUS STARTED TO NOT ADD UP!!

IN MY EYES I FELT SHE WAS TRYIN SO HARD TO B LIKE A GUY THAT SHE MISSED THE WHOLE POINT OF BEIN HUMAN AND HONEST AND LOYAL!

SHE TURNED ME INTO A GIRL I NEVER WAS:INSECURE, DEPRESSED, JELOUS,NAIVE AND JUS PLAIN WEAK!!

IT WENT FROM A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP TO ONE THAT EVERYONE WOULD LATER LAUGH AT!!

I WAS TIRED OF BEING LAUGHED AT AND CALLED DUMB AND NAIVE AND WEAK!! I WAS TIRED OF NOT BEING HAPPY!! AND ONE DAY I WOKE UP AND WAS TIRED OF BEIN TIRED1 TIRED OF BEING WEAK! TIRED OF BEING WITH HER!

........................SO I LEFT HER! I WAS TRYING TO HOLD ON TO SOMETHING THAT WAS NOT MENT TO B HELD ON TO BY A THIN THREAD!

I GREW TO HATE HER,TO HOLD SO MUCH ANGER TOWARDS HER! TO KNOW I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING MY BODY MIND AND HEART COULD OFFER.................O AND LETS NOT FORGET MONEY!!
IM GOIN THROUGH THAT PROCESS OF FORGIVING WHICH IS HARD FOR ME TO DO!!


I SEE PASS THE FEMAL AND MALE IMAGINE! I AM NOT GAY OR BI IN MY EYES! IM AM BRITNEY HOWARD AND I LOVE THE HUMAN RACE ALL TOGATHER!!

P.S NEVER BELIEVE THAT SHIT WHEN A PERSON SAYS "I NEVER GOT TIME TO CHEAT ON YOU,IM ALWAYS WIT YOU"................HUNNI THERES ALWAYS TIME!!

P.S AGAIN.............................WHEN U R REALLY FED UP, U WILL WAKE UP AND MAKE CHANGES!!

3 comments:

  1. I have experienced this and I, too, never thought of myself as les, bi, or gay. It just takes one male or female to take your breath away, but once you begin to die from losing your breath, you've got to let go.

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  2. "I AM NOT GAY OR BI IN MY EYES!"

    That's what I'm saying!! Don't label me as straight, bi, or gay-just let me do me.

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  3. Yes good job!!! I tell people Niggas digs an so are females they try to be better then dudes an med around sn be worst then them ugh hey every body plays the fool once in their life

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