Mentally Uncensored!

Mentally Uncensored!

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Hello

videoSORRY BUT IM STILL TRYNA GET IT TO WORK WHERE MY LIPS ARE IN SYNC TO WHAT IM SAYING!!!! THE TRACKING IS OFF

LET LIVE!!

THIS WILL BE BRIEF:

Let people live there lives!! Everything doesnt always have to be analyzed, judged or criticized! Whether it be their sexuality, job title,what they do in their home or how they live! Its so hard to find happiness and stability now and days & the last thing a person needs when they do find it, is to be judged for it!! People are quick to point, because it takes their mind off how much a fuckery their life is!! Everyday we should be improving ourselves. We are not suppose to put other down only because we may not agree with their form of happiness!!

Example: Im in love, and i never felt this way before!! I smile more than i ever have and that person who happens to do that is a woman! So if you dont agree am i suppose to let go of what makes me happy to fit in your box of NORMAL?? Hell No!!! There is people dying to just get a hit of the feeling i have!! & im definitely not go let it go for the next bitch to benefit from!! mama aint raise know fool!!

JUST LIVE, LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES, IMPROVE & BE HAPPY!!

BLIND LEADING THE BLIND!!

How can a man with NO legs teach you to walk?? How can a wealthy man with a gambling problem tell you how to manage money!!??

I have a major pet peeve of people thats so quick to give advice and either have NO knowledge of the subject................OR their situation is fucked up!! For me its like how can YOU give me advice that your clearly not taking your self!

Oh, how it is so easy for people to judge!!

Remember i had this rule: 90% of things in a relationship good & bad, you keep to yourself! The other 10% you choose wisely who and what you tell!!
If any argument or fight occurs in your relationship, people are not to far behind waiting to judge! Waiting to pick at it & throw in their two pennies.
This goes with life period!! There will be people with glass houses steady throwing stones!! If their not throwing stones, their competing with you, waiting for you to fail!!

Im saying this to say one of two things!!
1.) somethings (good or bad) should be left unsaid and private!! Not everyone need to know your weakness and failures & everyone dont need to know your blessings!!

2.)Before you start analyzing others lives, make sure yours is damn near perfect!! Dont throw rocks if your living in a glass house!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

YOU ARE "NOT" A MODEL


IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE LEAVE NOW!!!!!

YOU ARE NOT A MODEL:

1.)JUST BECAUSE YOU TALL AND SKINNY!! THAT DOESN'T MAKE YOU A MODEL, JUST LIKE IT WOULDN'T MAKE A TALL SKINNY MALE A BASKETBALL PLAYER!

2.)YOU BEING PRETTY DOES NOT MAKE YOU A MODEL! THERE'S A LOT OF PRETTY FACES AROUND!

3.) IF YOU TAKE GOOD PICTURES ON YOUR CAMERA PHONE OR WEB CAM AND POST THEM ON TWITTER, FACEBOOK OR MYSPACE, DOES NOT MAKE YOU MODEL! JUST SIMPLY A GIRL WHO TOOK A PICTURE ON HER CAMERA PHONE! #NEXT

4.) YOU TOOK A HAND FULL OF PHOTO SHOOTS DOESN'T MAKE YOU A MODEL!

5.)YOU JOINED A LOCAL GHETTO MODEL AGENCY MANAGED BY A LOCAL DUDE THAT'S TRYING TO COME UP JUST LIKE YOU! HONEY YOU ARE NOT A MODEL!

6.)EVERY PICTURE YOU TAKE, YOU CAN NEVER SEE YOUR FACE,JUST YOUR ASS!! JUST STOP, YOUR NOT A MODEL!!

7.)YOU DID A RUNWAY SHOW DOWN YOUR HIGH SCHOOL GYM ROOM. GIVE IT UP!

8.) YOU ONLY TAKE BLACK AND WHITE PICTURES, BECAUSE THAT'S THE ONLY TYPE OF PICTURES THAT YOU LOOK GOOD IN!! YOUR NOT A MODEL!

9.) YOU HAVE NEVER ADVERTISED ONE PRODUCT (CLOTHES, JEWELERY, SHOES ETC). YOUR SIMPLY JUST TAKING PICTURES!

10.) BESIDES TAKING CAMERA PHONE PICTURES, YOU PHOTOSHOP THE HELL OUT OF THEM, ALONG WIT ADDING GLITTER TO MAKE THEM PRETTY!! YOU NOT A MODEL AND GROW UP!

THATS ONLY A FEW.......................ADD YOUR OWN IN THE COMMENTS!!

THIS BLOG IS NOT MEANT TO SHUT ANYONE HOPES DOWN. ITS JUST THAT MODELING IS A CRAFT AND A ART. PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY DO MODEL HAVE WORKED VERY HARD TO GET WHERE THEY ARE! PEOPLE USE THE WORD "MODEL" TO LOOSE! FOR EXAMPLE: I KNOW HOW TO SING BUT I AM NOT A SINGER! I ALSO HAVE TOOK PHOTOS BUT I DON'T CLAIM TO BE A MODEL!!

HOPE YOU HAVE ENJOYED THIS BLOG TODAY!! SIGNING OUT!! MUAH!!


NOTE TO READER.............

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING AND COMMENTING ON MY BLOGS! IT IS GREATLY APPRECIATED!! IT DOESN'T MATTER IF YOU HERE TO BE A SPY, HATE ON ME, OR REALLY GET A LAUGH OR UNDERSTANDING OUT OF MY BLOGS! ITS STILL APPRECIATED!

GRANTED ALL MY BLOGS HAVE BEEN RUSHED, THEREFORE I NEVER PROOF READ! SO I WILL TRY MY BEST TO TAKE MY TIME SO THAT I DON'T HAVE ANY SPELLING MISTAKES OR SIDE CONVERSATIONS IN MY BLOG! WHETHER YOU TAKE MY BLOGS SERIOUSLY OR NOT, IT IS THE TRUTH THROUGH MY EYES!

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Monday, June 14, 2010

IM NOT MENT TO BE UNDERSTOOD!

SO AS YOU GUYS KNOW!! I DONT LABEL MYSELF! IVE GROWN TO BELIEVE THERE IS NOT GENDER OR RACE OR EVEN RULES BEHIND HAPPINESS!! I DONT CLASSIFY MYSELF EITHER!! WHAT I LIKE GOES WAYYYYYYYYY BEYOND WHATS IN BETWEEN SOMEONES LEGS!!

I CHOOSE MY BATTLES WISELY! WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO MY SEXUALITY THATS ONE THING I WONT EVER TRY TO MAKE SOMEONE UNDERSTAND, ESPECIALLY IF YOUR IRRELEVANT TO MY LIFE!!

A GUY I WORK WIT ASKED ME TYPICAL QUESTIONS. WHY DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND? ARE YOU FULL GAY? WHY WOULDNT YOU WANT A PRETTY GIRLY GIRL?

EVERYTHING IS PREFERENCE!! WHEN YOU DATE WHOEVER YOU DATE, YOU WANT THEM TO DRESS AND LOOK AND ACT A CERTAIN WAY! SAME WIT ME! IM NOT ATTRACTED TO GIRLY GIRLS, IM BARELY ATTRACTED TO GIRLS!

SOME PEOPLE ARE SO IGNORANT, AND IM NOT PUT ON THIS EARTH TO MAKE PEOPLE UNDERSTAND ME! IM HERE FOR ME TO LIVE MY LIFE AND LEARN MY ABILITIES!

SO THIS ONE GIRL SAYS, "I DONT SEE HOW YOU CAN DO IT, I NEED THAT MANS TOUCH"!! LOL GIRL SIT DOWN, BECAUSE EVERY TIME YOU GET LIQUOR IN YOUR SYSTEM YOU HITTING ON ME!!
& EVEN IF HIS PENIS IS OFF THE CHAIN, FROM WHAT I KNOW HE NOT TREATING YOUR RIGHT!
BUT I AM HAPPY, IS THAT NOT WHAT WE ALL SEARCH FOR?? HAPPINESS!

AND ONE OF THE MAIN REASONS WHY I LOVE THE PERSON IM WITH, IS BECAUSE SHE KNOWS SHES A WOMEN!! SHE DONT SOUND OR TRY TO BETRAY HERSELF LIKE A MAN!! NOW THE WAY SHE DRESS IS WHATS COMFORTABLE TO HER!! TO BE HONEST THATS THE FIRST THING I NOTICE, HER STYLE! SHE HAS THIS ROCKSTAR/GEEK LOOK, AND IT WORKS FOR HER!
DONT JUDGE A PERSONS CLOTHES BY WHO YOU MAY THINK THEY ARE!
IF SHE DID ACT LIKE A MAN I WOULDN'T BE WITH HER, THAT WOULD BE A TURN OFF. THATS WHY IM NOT WITH MY EX, INCLUDING SHE WASN'T SHIT LOL!

PEOPLE ITS CLOSE TO 2011, EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING ISN'T MEANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD! GAYS,LESBIANS,BI'S AND THE UNLABELED ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE!!

IM NOT PREACHING FOR EVERYONE TO GO GAY! BUT DONT LIMIT YOUR HAPPINESS!! ALSO DONT LET WHAT OTHERS THINK LIMIT YOUR HAPPINESS EITHER!

OH AND P.S DON'T ASK QUESTIONS IF YOU AREN'T INTERESTED IN LEARNING!

P.S IF YOU GUYS EVER WANT ME TO BLOG ABOUT ANYTHING JUST COMMENT!!

So Today You Wanna Get Holy!

NOW I AM NOT ONE TO GET INTO RELIGION! THATS A SUBJECT THAT COULD NEVER END!

BUT.............................WHAT I DONT LIKE IS WHEN SUNDAY COMES AROUND HOW PEOPLE WANNA GET EXTRA HOLY!!
ON MY TWITTER TIMELINE ALL I SEE IS: TODAY IS SUNDAY! STOP BEIN NEGATIVE ON JESUS DAY! LOL

THESE IS COMING FROM THE SAME PEOPLE WHO WHERE USING #TWITTERAFTERDARK AS THERE TRENDY TOPIC THE DAY BEFORE SUNDAY!

THESE ARE THE SAME PEOPLE WHO FUCK,SUCK,STEAL,LIE,GET DRUNK AS HELL IN THE CLUBS & COMMITTING ALL TYPES OF SINS MONDAY-SATURDAY!
BUT SUNDAY YOU WANNA GET ALL HOLY AND RELIGIOUS!

BEING RIGHT FOR YOUR GOD (IF YOU BELIEVE IN ONE) IS NOT JUST GOING TO CHURCH ON SUNDAY!! & IF YOU THINK THAT< I NEED TO TALK TO YOUR PASTOR!

BEING RIGHT FOR HIM IS IMPROVING YOUR LIFESTYLE EVERYDAY FOR HIM, SPIRITUALLY BEING CONNECTED TO HIM!! NOT JUST WHEN SUNDAY HIT OR YOU NEED A FAVOR!
I AM A STRONG BELIEVER THAT EVERYONE AS THEIR OWN PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD, IF YOU HAVE ANY RELATIONSHIP AT ALL! MY RELATIONSHIP WIT HIM MAY BE DIFFERENT THEN THE NEXT!

SO THIS IS NOT TO SAY I AM PERFECT, OR DO NOT SIN! BUT YOU WILL NOT SEE ME MONDAY-SATURDAY ACTING LIKE THE DEVIL RAISED ME, THEN SUNDAY SPEAK THE WORDS "ITS SUNDAY EVERYONE BE POSITIVE"!!

SO TO SUM IT ALL UP! SO THAT THERE IS KNOW MISUNDERSTANDINGS! MY POINT IS, EVERYDAY BE A BETTER PERSON FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN!! EVERYDAY GIVE THANKS AND ASK FOR FORGIVENESS!!

DONT JUST PRAY ON SUNDAY!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

....KNOW ONE WANT A UNTAMED VAGINA!!

LADIES TAKE CARE OF THOSE THANGS IN BETWEEN YOUR LEGS!!

WHEN IT COMES TO MY HAIR, FACE AND VAGINA, ALL THAT HAS TO BE TAKEN CARE OF!!

1.) IT OK TO KEEP BABY WIPES OR ALWAYS COODAMAMA WIPES IN YOUR PURSE! STAY FRESH ALL DAY! YOU NEVER KNOW WITHIN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY WAT NATURE MAY BRING! A SUDDEN OF HOT WEATHER, AND LIL MAMA DOWN THERE MAY NEED TO BREATH AND PROLLY A LIL WIPE DOWN!! OR YOU MAY OUT OF KNOW WHERE BETWEEN BREAKS AT WORK MAY WANT TO GET YOU SOME.............................THOSE WIPES CAN COME IN USE!

I HAVE A PET PEEVE ABOUT USING TISSUE ALL DAY TO WIPE MY SELF!! MAYBE ITS MY OCD BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I JUST SMEARED PISS ON ME WITH A DRY TOWEL! SO EVERY NOW AND AGAIN ITS OK TO PULL OUT THE ALWAYS WIPES! THATS WHAT ITS MADE FOR!

2.) KNOW ONE WANTS TO PICK THRU THE TREE TO GET TO THE APPLES! TAME THAT DOWN THERE.......................!! NOW IT IS A FACT THAT EVERYTHING IS ON YOUR BODY FOR A REASON! AND THE HAIR IS THERE TO BLOCK BACTERIA FROM GETTIN INSIDE YOU, BUT THAT DONT MEAN LET IT GROW OUT THATS ITS A PRINT THRU YOUR JEANS! THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WIT A LIL TRIM, FADE , MOHAWK LOL, WAT EVER YOU GOT GOIN ON DOWN THERE!! CUZ HUNNI AFTER A WHILE THAT SHIT WILL LEAVE A SMELL!!

3.)TREAT THAT BABY LIKE A CHILD! YOU WOULDNT LET EVERYONE TOUCH YOUR BABY, SO DONT LET ANYONE TOUCH YOUR VA-JAY-JAY! DONT LET ANYONE ABUSE THE BABY!! SO WHEN SOMEONE SAY THEY GO TEAR THAT SHIT UP, BE AWARE THAT THEY REALLY MIGHT !

4.) I PERSONALLY HAVE SEPARATE SOAPS, AND SPRAY FOR DOWN THERE! THAT JUST MAY BE MY OCD AGAIN!! BUT WHEN YOU IN THE SHOWER MAKE SURE THE HUNNI IS CLEAN!! NOT JUST THE SURFACE! GET IN THERE AND LIFT SHIT UP! HUNNI DO WHAT YOU GOT TO DO!

CUZ BELIEVE IT OR NOT TO MANY PPL WALKING AROUND WITH VAGINAS THATS OFF THE CHAIN!! AND THATS NOT A GOOD THING!!

SO ALL JOKES ASIDE! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF! GET CHECKED UP REGULARLY AND KEEP IT CLEAN!!

Monday, June 7, 2010

DEAR TWITTER,

YOU ARE ADDICTIVE, AND SOMETIMES YOU AINT SHIT!!
I ALWAYS WANT TO BE ON YOU YET, YOU INTERFERE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE IM DOING! YOU STAY ON MY MIND WHILE IM AT WORK, OUT TO EAT AND YOU EVEN ON MY MIND WHEN I SHOULD B SPENDING TIME WIT MY LOVE LOL!!

YOU HAVE BECOME ANOTHER WORLD TO BRING MY REALNESS TO!!1 & ALSO THE SAME WORLD WHERE I SEE OTHERS NOT BEING TO REAL IN!!

WHILE WE ARE ON THAT SUBJECT!! U HAVE ALOT OF FAKE PPL IN YOUR WORLD!! ALOT OF PEOPLE IN YOUR WORLD THAT I N\KNOW IN MY WORLD DOESNT ACT THEY WAY THEY DO IN YOUR WORLD!!

SOMETIMES I WANT TO CALL THEM OUT AND SAY WHEN DID YOU GET THE BALLS TO SAY THAT, CUZ I KNOW YOU AND WOULDNT SAY THAT IN REAL LIFE!!! LOL......

YOU HAVE BECOME TOPIC OF ME AND MY LOVE LIL ARGUMENTS LOL!!

YOU HAVE GAINED ME HUMANS THAT IM INTERESTED IN!! WELL THEIR THOUGHTS ATLEAST!! LOL..................I FUCKIN HATE YOU.....................*AS I LONG BACK INTO YOU THRU MY BLACKBERRY*

.............WHEN WOMEN CHEAT!!

DOING: PUTS MY POPEYES DOWN TO WRITE THIS BLOG LOL!!

I THINK YOU HAVE 2 TYPE OF CHEATERS!!!!!

1.) THE ONES THAT CHEAT FOR KNOW REASON! KNOW SENSE OF WILL POWER! WANTS TO HAVE THEIR CAKE AND EAT IT TO!! WANT TO TRY EVERY CANDY IN THE CANDY STORE EVEN THO THEY HAVE ALREADY FOUND THEIR FAVORITE CANDY! USUALLY IN MY EYES MEN!!

2.)THE ONES THAT MISSING SOMETHING FROM THEIR RELATIONSHIP, NOT ENOUGH FOR THEM TO LET THE RELATIONSHIP GO, BUT ENOUGH FOR THEM TO GO OUT TO FILL THE VOID!! IT DOESNT EVEN HAVE TO BE SEXUALLY! MAYBE YOU ARE MISSING COMMUNICATION OR ATTENTION IN YOUR RELATIONSHIP! SO YO FIND IT SOMEWHERE ELSE!! THIS IS USUALLY WOMEN!!

I FEEL WHEN MOST WOMEN CHEAT ITS BECAUSE SOMETHING IS MISSING IN THAT RELATIONSHIP!! BUT WOMEN ARE ALSO SPECIES THAT RARELY GIVES UP ON A PERSON! SO AS THEY MAKE THEIR OWN RELATIONSHIP WORK , THEY STILL MAYBE GETTIN COMMUNICATION OR ATTENTION FROM SOMEONE ELSE!! DOES IT MAKE IT RIGHT?????? NO!! BUT IN SOME SITUATIONS IT IS DIFFERENT THEN WHEN MEAN CHEAT!!

FOR A MAN ALL IT HAS TO BE IS A PRETTY FACE OR BANGING BODY ON A WOMEN OR EVEN JUST TO STROKE THEIR OWN EGO!!

BUT WITH A WOMEN ITS ALMOST LIKE LAST RESORT! A MENTAL OR A EMOTIONAL NEED THAT THEY ARE THIRSTY FOR!! & ALOT OF THE TIMES IT DONT HAVE TO RESULT IN SEX!!

I AM NOT A CHEATER, BUT I HAVE ONCE BEEN IN THAT SITUATION WHERE I WAS HURTING!! I FELT SO NEGLECTED AND HURT THAT I REALIZED ALL THE THINGS I WAS MISSING IN MY RELATIONSHIP!! I WAS MENTALLY AND VERBALLY ABUSED BY THIS PERSON! BUT I CRAVED TO BE THE ONE TO MAKE THEM BETTER!! WE LACKED COMMUNICATION ON HER PART AND I WAS NO LONGER GETTIN ATTENTION ALMOST AS IF I WAS WAS IN THE RELATIONSHIP ALONE!! SO I FOUND MYSELF CRAVING THE ATTENTION FROM OTHERS THAT I WASNT GETTING FROM HER! JUST A SIMPLE I MISS YOU OR YOUR BEAUTIFUL!! WAS ALL I NEEDED!!

CRAZY RIGHT!
WHAT DO YOU THINK??

Sunday, June 6, 2010

......Change UR lifestyle to work here!!

WHAT IF SOMEONE TOLD YOU IN ORDER TO WORK IN MY SHOP U HAVE TO CONFORM TO PRAYING TO ALAH AND NOT GOD! YOUR WHOLE RELIGION AND WHO YOU ARE SPIRITUALLY HAS TO CHANGE WHEN YOU WORK IN OUR SHOP! WOULD YOU?

THAT ANSWER MAY BE NO !!!! AM I RIGHT??

ONE OF MY FRIENDS JUST TEXT ME FEELING SAD! NOW SHE IS A LESBIAN, SHE DONT REALLY DRESS LIKE A GUY BUT ALSO DONT WEAR TIGHT FITTED CLOTHES LIKE A GIRL! SHE HAS A NICE CLASSY STYLE ABOUT HER SELF, BUT SHE WOULD B CONSIDERED A STUD!

HER MOM WAS TELLING HER IN ORDER TO WORK ANYWHERE SHE WILL HAVE TO CONFORM INTO DRESSIN LIKE A GIRL..............PUTTIN ON WIGS AND TIGHT SHIRTS AND SKINNY JEANS!! NOW IN ORDER TO WORK AT THE CLUB I WORKED IN THEY DIDNT WANT TO HIRE HER UNLESS SHE DRESSED LIKE A "GIRL"!! THE NEXT DAY SHE CAME IN WIT A WIG A SKIRT AND HEELS!! SHE LOOKED SO UNCOMFORTABLE AND I WANTED TO CRY FOR HER! AND GUESS WHAT????? SHE STILL DIDNT GET THE JOB!! CAN WE SAY EMBARRASSING!! NOW SHE ACTUALLY GOT HIRED SOMEWHERE OFF OF HER WORK ETHICS!! BUT NOW HER MOM IS COMING AT HER ABOUT HER "LIFESTYLE"!! :-(

I DONT WANT TO GET INTO THE WHOLE CHOICE OR NOT CHOICE OF BEING GAY!! CUZ MY SITUATION IS BEYOND A CHOICE OR NOT!! WHY CANT THINGS JUS B AS IS???

BUT TO JUST PUT IT OUT THERE, I DONT THINK ANYONE WOULD CHOOSE TO BE STARED AT AND LOOKED DOWN UPON AND DISCRIMINATED AGAINST!!

IT JUST PISSED ME OFF BECAUSE IF YOU WOULDNT CHANGE YOUR RELIGION EVERYTIME YOU WORKED IN A CERTAIN PLACE TO SATISFY THE BOSS OR TO FIT IN, HOW CAN YOU ASK ANOTHER PERSON TO CHANGE THERE LIFESTYLE!!

ITS HURTS ME TO HER HOW SAID AND UNCOMFORTABLE SHE IS!! TO KNOW YOUR OWN MOM MAY EVEN LOOK DOWN ON YOU BECAUSE OF IT!!

FYI GAY PEOPLE ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE............SO LEARN TO LOVE AND TO UNDERSTAND!!!!! MUAH

THANK U! Now tell ME!!

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Friday, June 4, 2010

MIND OF THE BARTENDER!


MOOD:TIRED
CURRENTLY:SITTIN HERE WITH A MASK ON MY FACE!!

ONCE U BECOME A BARTENDER YOU LEARN ALL THE MENTAL SECRETS OF IT!! & IM NOT SPEAKIN ON HOW TO MAKE DRINKS!!

HUMANS: THIS IS IMPORTANT: YOU HAVE TO TIP YOUR BARTENDER! ANYONE THAT SERVES YOU ( A WAITER, THE PERSON WHO DOES YOUR NAILS, A STRIPPER ETC) TIP THEM! ITS YOUR WAY OF SAYIN THANK YOU! AND JOBS LIKE THAT YOU ARE WORKING OFF OF TIPS AND SOME TIPS ALONE!

NOW FOR THE ONES THAT DONT TIP ( & YES WE REMEMBER THE NON TIPPING PEOPLE) , WE END UP BASICALLY NOT GIVING A FUCK ABOUT YOU! YOU TAKE CARE OF OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU THAT WE KNOW ARE GOIN TO TIP! WHEN WE MAKE YO DRINKS WE DONT HOOK YOU UP!! WE MAKE YOU WAIT & PROBABLY GIVE U THAT............."THIS CHEAP NIGGA"LOOK! A NICE TIP CAN BE $2-$5 DOLLARS EVERYTIME YOU GET A DRINK! SHIT EVEN A DOLLAR ADDS UP! OR LAST RESORT IF U SITTIN AT THE BAR AFTER YOU HAVE PURCHASED AND DRANK ALL YOUR DRINKS BEFORE YOU LEAVE.............LEAVE THE BARTENDER $10. BECAUSE WITHOUT THE BARTENDER AND DRINKS YOUR TIME AT THE CLUB MIGHT BE BORING, SO APPRECIATE HER!

FYI: STOP ALWAYS BEING THIRSTY TO GET THE BIGGER GLASS! EITHER WAY, KNOW MATTER WHAT GLASS YOU GET, THE SAME AMOUNT OF LIQUOR WILL GO IN IT! MEANING THAT THE BIGGER THE GLASS....................EQUALS TO MORE ICE AND MORE JUICE/POP JUST TO FILL THAT BIG ASS GLASS UP! NOW THIS RULE GOES FOR BARS OR CLUBS THAT IS ON A POURING SYSTEM!! MEANING CANT GIVE AWAY FREE OR MORE LIQUOR THAN THE BOSS SAID!

LADIES: DONT COME TO THE CLUB WITH 20$$ HOPING THAT SOME DUDE/MAN WILL END UP BUYIN YOU A DRINK!! THAT MEANS IF YOU DIDNT COME TO THE CLUB BEFORE IT WAS FREE U ALREADY SPENT 10 OUT OF UR 20$$ AT THE DOOR. NOW THAT LEAVES YOU LOOKIN LIKE A CHEAP BITCH ASKING WAT EVERYTHING COST, SO YOU CAN SEE WHAT YOU CAN AFFORD FOR YOUR FIRST DRINK. WHICH LEAVES ME TO KNOW THAT YOUR CHEAP ASS WONT EVEN LEAVE A TIP!

IF YOUR GOAL IS TO GET FUCK UP FAST BUT YOU DIDNT BRING MUCH MONEY, YOUR BEST BET IS TO BUY A LONG ISLAND OR A BLUE MOTHA FUCKA!

I TELL YOU THIS BECAUSE ITS SAD TO KNOW THAT PEOPLE DONT KNOW THAT THIS IS REQUIRED!! SOMETIME YOU HAVE TO BE IN THE BUSINESS TO UNDERSTAND IT! SO NOW YOU KNOW! TIP THE MOTHA FUCKIN BARTENDER!!!!

MUAH!!

Thursday, June 3, 2010

R U STILL CRYIN...........

EVERY TEAR THAT DROPS MAKES U STRONGER AND WISER!!.............................NEVER THING YOU ARE WEAK BECAUSE THE TEARS WONT STOP! THE TEARS IS WHAT KEEPS YOU PARTIALLY SANE!!.......IVE CRIED ALOT OF TEARS AND WITHOUT THOSE TEARS I MIGHT NOT KNOW THE THINGS I KNOW NOW!! SO WIPE THE TEARS AWAY FOR NOW AND GET ON THE ROAD TO BECOMING A BETTER YOU TODAY THAN YOU WERE YESATERDAY! MUAH!

...........The girl that thought she had BALLS

SHE WAS A MAJOR BITCH!!!!

Ok remember when i said before i got wit a girl i was never curious:::????

THIS IS HOW IT HAPPENED!!

I MET HER AND IN MY MIND I THOUGHT SHE WOULD B LIKE A BESTFRIEND OR A SISTER OR JUST A GOOD ASSOCIATE!! BUT i found myself bein nervous around her and shy!!! That feeling you are suppose to get when your a feeling a guy!!! But this feeling was wit a GIRL!

I TRIED TO SHAKE THE FEELING OF LIKING HER & THAT FEELING CONFUSED ME! I BEGAN TO BECOME JEALOUS WHEN SHE SPOKE OF OTHER GIRLS & I BEGAN WANTING TO B CLOSER TO HER AND AROUND HER ALL THE TIME!!

AFTER A MONTH I TOLD MY SELF "FUCK IT , U LIKE THIS GIRL!!' SHE ASKED ME TO B WITH HER AND I DIDNT DECLINE!! I WAS SHOCKED AT HOW COMFORTABLE I WAS WITH HER...............!! EAGER TO KISS HER AND HUG HER AND LAY WIT HER!! I WAS COMFORTABLE!! KISSING HER CAME NATURAL EVEN THOUGH IT WAS SOFTER THAN ANY GUY I KISSED. HAVING SEX WIT HER WAS EXCITING AND VERSATILE AND IT WAS MORE THAN WHAT I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE!! IT WAS MORE THAN JUS ORAL SEX AND GRINDING LOL!!!! THERE WAS SO MUCH TO DO SEXUALLY! IT STARTED TO BECOME NATURAL TO ME!

I PUT ALL TRUST IN THIS PERSON, A TRUST I NEVER GAVE ANYONE ELSE!!........................THEN SHE CHEATED!! WHAT THE FUCK>>>>>I NEVER BEEN CHEATED ON!!! SHE BECAME A CHEATER AND SHE LIED AND I...........................WELL I BECAME A NAIVE FOOL! I DIDNT WANT TO LISTEN TO ANYONE! I WANTED TO BE THE ONE WHO WOULD CHANGE HER INTO THE ONE EVERYONE WAS TRYNA GET HER TO BE!

SHE BECAME VERY CONTROLLING AND MENTALLY ABUSIVE & JEALOUS!! I WAS BEAUTIFUL AND I WAS TOLD THAT ALOT..................EVEN HER FIRENDS WANTED TO HAVE ME OR ONE LIKE ME! I HAD A GOOD JOB WHERE I WAS MAKING MORE MONEY IN A DAY THEN SHE GOT IN A TWO WEEK PAY CHECK!! SHE BECAME ENVIOUS OF ME AND THE THING I HAD!! SHE LIED SO MUCH THAT AFTER A WHILE THEY JUS STARTED TO NOT ADD UP!!

IN MY EYES I FELT SHE WAS TRYIN SO HARD TO B LIKE A GUY THAT SHE MISSED THE WHOLE POINT OF BEIN HUMAN AND HONEST AND LOYAL!

SHE TURNED ME INTO A GIRL I NEVER WAS:INSECURE, DEPRESSED, JELOUS,NAIVE AND JUS PLAIN WEAK!!

IT WENT FROM A PERFECT RELATIONSHIP TO ONE THAT EVERYONE WOULD LATER LAUGH AT!!

I WAS TIRED OF BEING LAUGHED AT AND CALLED DUMB AND NAIVE AND WEAK!! I WAS TIRED OF NOT BEING HAPPY!! AND ONE DAY I WOKE UP AND WAS TIRED OF BEIN TIRED1 TIRED OF BEING WEAK! TIRED OF BEING WITH HER!

........................SO I LEFT HER! I WAS TRYING TO HOLD ON TO SOMETHING THAT WAS NOT MENT TO B HELD ON TO BY A THIN THREAD!

I GREW TO HATE HER,TO HOLD SO MUCH ANGER TOWARDS HER! TO KNOW I SACRIFICED EVERYTHING MY BODY MIND AND HEART COULD OFFER.................O AND LETS NOT FORGET MONEY!!
IM GOIN THROUGH THAT PROCESS OF FORGIVING WHICH IS HARD FOR ME TO DO!!


I SEE PASS THE FEMAL AND MALE IMAGINE! I AM NOT GAY OR BI IN MY EYES! IM AM BRITNEY HOWARD AND I LOVE THE HUMAN RACE ALL TOGATHER!!

P.S NEVER BELIEVE THAT SHIT WHEN A PERSON SAYS "I NEVER GOT TIME TO CHEAT ON YOU,IM ALWAYS WIT YOU"................HUNNI THERES ALWAYS TIME!!

P.S AGAIN.............................WHEN U R REALLY FED UP, U WILL WAKE UP AND MAKE CHANGES!!

............What I do wit MY vagina!!


MY FIRST BLOG!!!! YAY!! *WAITS FOR CLAPS*..............................THANK YOU!!


There is one topic that i have been wanted to talk about for a WHILE. So i figured why not make it my first blog??

I HAVE SEX WIT A GIRL!! *LISTENS TO THE GASP*!!
Yes this is tru!! now before we start to go into the titles of gay or straight or bi...........................id rather not claim myself has anything! Now of course society would like to but me in this lil box where they can put a title on me and set boundaries on what i can and cant like because of who i have sex wit NOW! But i look at society (the people im surrounded by) as local gossipers!

Now i always get asked: What guy did you wrong? where u abused as a child by a man? the questions goes on and on!

SO HERE IT GOES!!!! R U READY??!!!

There wasnt any traumatic experience that i went thru wit a man to lead me into having sex wit a women now! i dont hate men or dislike them! i dont wise they have trip into a volcano! To b honest i love men! i had 3 long good relationships wit men! From the type of guy that wanted to b the next eminem to a police officer to a football player!! All those relationships were good and easy now that i look back on it!!

I was one of those girls that said "id never even think about being wit a girl<> But then i met a girl that i didnt want to believe i was goin to fall in love wit but i did!!!! She put me thru hell!! 8 months of abuse and anger and hurt and pain etc!!! KNOW GUY HAS EVER PUT ME THRU WAT SHE DID!! But i stayed around because she was almost like my first love all over again!! But then i woke and realized i wouldnt live my life being unhappy!! then i told my self id never b wit a girl again after her!!! But then a angel came along ad told me things i heard before but it sounded so right coming from her mouth!! I wasnt goin to miss out on love because society didnt agree wit my form of happiness!! i knew so many ppl trying to get where i was and still havent found it!! and here i am HAPPY!!

WITH A WOMEN!!

i come from a family that never ask questions and wasnt judgmental!! I loved that!!
Now granted i still love men but right now im IN LOVE wit her!!